FRom today onwards.. This BLOG IS CLOSED!!!!

okay, i have finally decided that i'll abandon my blog coz i lazy to update alrdy.
sounds like my blog is some kind of ship..haha abandoning blog(ship)!
But i won't remove the entries, it shall just remain here.
maybe one day i'll open another blog, but not too soon, bored of updating.
so this shall be my last entry on this blog so must sound happy.

well, i'm glad my por por is coming with me, my parents and jo on a holiday this year, so cool lor. hahaha though it's only 2 days, it's better than nothing. BUt hopefully my dad is saying this holiday thing for real.
Sometimes, we all get tired of being the nice person. of making the sacrifices alrdy. so much so that we reach our limits.
and i just truly wanna say sorry if i've hurt u.

ALright, enuff of this blog.haha.



i'm so freaking stressed, so freaking pissed, irritated, i'm so lost, so stuck. i need a long holiday.why are pple so depressed all the time? what's wrong with trying to be happy? why do pple make things worse than they actually are? why???? i've got a stupid article to complete as well as the stupid jap hw, which is sooooo confusing.




i just came back from walking with my por por downstairs and bathing..
It's been so long since i actually really spent time with her, and it's kinda nice, recollecting the memories from the past. Like times where she used to bring jo and i downstairs to play, walk, bla bla bla.. Even the holiday where we went to tioman , where she collected seashells and all.
Aiyah, a whole long list.
I really want to go on another holiday with her this year. Maybe end of this year, but problem is my parents don't really appreciate the idea of going to some beach resort or something, somewhere quiet, relaxing to just chill for a few days. It's always rushing here and there, always sightseeing, maybe it's time for a change right? I mean it's like i think it'll be quite nice if we can bring her somewhere for a holiday, there isn't always many opportunities and we must cherish every opportunity we have while we still can. Even if it's for once, why not? It'll probably mean something special to her, bring a smile to her face? i dunno.
yes, must accomodate the whole family, but the thing is i don't think it's very hard to just compromise for once right? It's like you don't want to wait and wait and then later regret you never had a chance to do so. regret is a horrible feeling.
Anyway, tmr there's econs test and i don't feel the pressure, haha..
Help, my japanese is going to die!!!! i better try read it tmr or something.



stop adding to my horrible mood!
stop intruding into my privacy!!!
don't look thru my things when i'm not arnd.. i hate it
don't start quarrels or fights with me, it's damn irritating.
as i said before, i want peace pls.

stop guessing or making up things which are non existent, or imaginary.
you're thinking too much and unnecessarily.
worrying unnecessarily.
stop it.
it's freaking frustrating.
Don't make me more miserable pls.

and pls respect other pple's privacy too.

my blog will ceast to exist soon.
i don't see the point in writing here. what can i write?
don't try and know me from reading what i write.
just give me a break!



today it was lessons after lessons..
i realised something...haha. i hate feeling stupid when i don't understand, i feel stupid all the time.hahaha so must aim to feel clever.
maths has a strange way of making me so worked up and so depressed. It's frustrating not being able to do questions that i keep wanting to give up halfway..but no. i can't do that anymore. i shall bug and bug and bug mr lim with every little question i don't understand.hahaha
For lit, it was a livelier lesson today, coz we were doing poem comparison and for once our class wasn't so dead.hahaha. Don't even talk about gp. it's super boring. Why must it be almost everyday that we have gp lessons, i have to carry arnd those two stacks of readings! So heavy!!!
Denise, i didn't get to skip pe!!!!! My dad say no valid excuse..:( hahaha

Well for pe, i'm So glad we got mr wong as our pe teacher again instead of ms smith. don't really like her.. but mr wong is mad, he made us run round the school which was supposed to be the route guys take..not girls!!! but thankfully, it rained so we only ran 1 and 3/4 rounds instead of 3 rounds..
Hmmm sometimes, we have to learn to be thickskin abit..haha then we won't feel so affected by what others say, even if it was unintentional or intentional and indirect.
Like what i learned at one chingay meeting, nv let anyone spoil yr day or something like that la..aiyah the idea is there la.haha
Well, i shall be hardworking now and finish up all my homework for tmr. I guess this year i shall just be consistent all year through then i won't feel so stressed. As long as there's alrdy that momentum going, it won't be so tiring to study.

i miss the pancake at bishan!!



here's something funny..

You know the canteen food stalls, Ian was commenting on them one day..
Do you want to eat royal food or non-royal food? royal food is noodle king..haha
how about food that will make you happy? Japanese delight!
or food that will make you tempted? Vegetarian temptation. so lame rite.haha

I feel like i can't cope with my japanese lessons alrdy. SO many things to do. Last lesson was really blur! But well a few more lessons and it'll be the test.
Hope i don't fail.haha
I'm tired of the same routine over and over again.
i don't like competitive pple. It's pressurizing n frustrating.

Anyway thanks fanny, sunday was nice! :):) We should do this more often, it was nice shopping with you.haha i helped you think of an idea alrdy..you shld know what i mean. I miss you, fanny.
It's quite sad that i don't get to meet you that often. Miss you and yr craziness..haha. rmb the shirt u wanted to buy? so cute! haha..

Oh well, i have found some pancake shop that is reallly nice! I couldn't find it for so long, and now i know where to go whenever i have a craving for it. haha



went to srjc today
i'm glad my group pple are quite nice, although we're a very small grp but it doesn't matter.
there was an ex sc girl who was in my group, she's j1 from srjc..so i decided to be friendly and talk to her. Well, at least they're not like stuck up or what so it was easier to talk to them. Although the games weren't rly fun, but well i enjoyed myself. It's like taking a break from studying.
I miss srjc. it brings back a lot of memories, from the surroundings, to the teachers, to the food. well i guess it wasn't so bad afterall. Sad that none of the stalls were open.
tmr will be the third lesson of jap and we'll be going kbox first since we havent been to kbox in an awfullly long time, except for me.haha. but 2 hrs..hmm we'll be missing out on one hour though.
i miss playing pool..i wanna go play soon.
overall i loved today.It was nice.



just give me some peace.
i don't wish to have any fights at home.
can't u learn to trust?

today sucks.

hope tmr's better..
i'm probably going to close this blog, i dun have much to write nowadays.
my blog's dying,prob noone even comes here anymore.

i used to write long long entries, but now no mood.